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Saturday, August 28, 2004
10:32:00 PM
human emotions
Monday, August 23, 2004
ok its me once again................. today was in a nutshell a long long day. I feel so tired.....and its only monday nite.....still got so mani more days to go before the anticipated weekend. Ok my studies really..in a mess........constant procastination is getting me no where...... its only going to get worse........ i cant afford to flunk my promos................
Barely coping with tutorials these past few weeks... seems i was doing better in term 2.. this term is slack and sleep at home and on weekends...playing pool...watching movies.....chilling....perhaps too much....well thats me...........
Was at SAFTI today to tour OCS facilities.quite impressive....but the reality set in....After all the shit in jc and the A levels its off to the army. There goes your freedom....but what the heck thats in the future.......what concerns me now is my studies....Number one priority together with maintaining existing friendships and making new friends.
SO i must live with the mindset that everyday should be enjoyed to the max.......LIve for the moment? DUn care about the consequences just do it !
9:28:00 PM
choice
Saturday, August 21, 2004
as you travel through life u will undoubtedly make decisions.. whether u make a wise one or a foolish one..only the almighty noes. WHy am i saying this..cos i made a painful decision to return to my native church of st ignatius... in so i have to stop going to city harvest church... returning to a catholic church instead of a christian one. listening to a priest instead of a pastor. Feeling bored and sleepy instead of exuberance.. Well i will definintely have to readapt once again.. no more praise and worship .. all the liveliness will be replaced of one of solemness.
Somehow my mind is confused...one side of me wants to stay in chc, while the other wants me to return to my roots. Seems like one side won.. i can c why christians enjoy their services so much in the presence of their friends and god.
2 months seem a short time..but the experience was enriching.. an eye opener into the world of christians from a catholic point of view. To jx....sorry once again...i dunno how to find words to properly explain it. I can c why pple find it hard to leave the church once u go there, it is so lively ...
The past week can be described in one word HECTIC. Why? cos there was tons of stuff to do, had to prepare for the dreaded project work report draft..that took ages... school work is piling up and my econs seems to be heading downhill..blame it on my laziness to do revision and my poor time management skills. MOnday end school late, tuesday... slept late, wednesday slept late, thursday slept late... Friday. ok one of the better days. CCA was cancelled due to the rain, so went to town to have fun along with some of my cca mates. Had lunch..chicken rice and then went to play lan again... not enough money to play pool... left around 5 .. was supposed to meet my old schoolmates at cineleisure around 550pm but i waited till 630 and they still havent arrive yet.. Turns out they arrived later than that due to being stuck heavy traffic.. drats in the end couldnt watch the movie "aliens vs predator" with them.
Today .. went to play pool in the afternoonl its becoming addictive i tell you.. still need more practice yup . Watched the olympic match between Spore and N korea... heartbreaking to see Spore's Jia wei lose to N korean in the very last match. I found the N korean very irritating with all her shouting.... I hope that SIngapore wins the bronze medal tomolo GO SINGAPORE GO JIAWEI
now my mind is blank.... thinking about the christian experience...
SIGh........................... Nite pple and god bless. May the almighty enlighten the emptiness in my heart now. To all the peeps reading this..stay cool always...no matter how bad things are, god is with u :)
9:29:00 PM
How to get rid of stress
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Yes today i shall talk about stress.. what is stres.. i think it means a form of pressure that causes u to be frustrated, angry, easily irritated..essentially PMS symptoms.. wait how can guys possibly pms.. the sky must be falling down, ok lame crap aside. REally.. stress can be overwhelming..its effects devastating if not controlled.. which is why i flare up ocassionally when stress becomes too much.School in particular is the biggest source of stress at this point of my life, the army and working life will be major factors when i grow up. Sometimes i feel so sick of school and all the work that has to be done, but then i am probably too lazy to go out to work at this moment.
lets c,,first step to relieve stress, worry about nothing! yeah sounds too good to be true.. i wanna be like that and toss all those worries in one corner.
no 2, pray about everything.. i mean u gotta be thankful for things that we have that others dont have.. think think pple living in poverty, or pple suffering in countries plagued by war
no 3..think positively...well surely its better to think of good stuff than bad stuff
anyway back to my life.. another week has passed, zoomed by in fact.. hw is piling up and it aint a good sign. Everyday in school i got the urge to sleep, sometimes the thought of skipping cca crosses my mind too. PW is gonna be a toughie to handle, got some draft due this friday. Oh yeah Sat was fun, played pool and watched COLLATERAL ( a nice show thats somewhat vulgar and a bit violent).. what the actor sayz is actually quite true... This morning had service which was pretty cool, after that ate some food at the food fair.. now i am rotting in front of the computer..procastinating.. HW TIME!!
4:29:00 PM
VINDICATED i am selfish , i am wrong................
Monday, August 09, 2004
i seriouly dunno what is going on in my life now... i seem to be drifting just trying to survive....barely making it through daily life.....SOMe things never change......i am still struggling inside my head. I FEAR AN EXPLOSION OF ANGST out really soon, why is it that i usually find out things that i dun want to noe........sometimes i really dunno why i think so much. It would be so much simpler if i could just ignore a lot of things in my life..........................................school.................................= hw, politics in class, pw, tests, cca....social life..................................................................................in a mess, only can rely on a few good friends that are not in my school unfortunately................LIFE ....i really wonder why i am saying all this crap.CRAP CRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAPCRAp
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HAIYAR everytime i try to cheer up myself up..something will come and knock it fucking down.thats right i am damn tired of restraining myself from spewing fuckiing vulgarities.ITS SO TIRING WHEN U C PPLE BLOWING OFF STEAM AND YET U CANT
SEERIOusly lah... if things dont get better, i might as well go and work....no doubt that it would be hard.........aiyar i dunno what iam saying already.....JC..........what a journey.........happiness displayed by pple seem only as A FUCKING FACADE.................i want a simple life, maybe if i was in a third world country, i wouldnt have to worry/ think about all this shit. Instead i would be thinking of where to eat and satisfy my basic needs.
PPLE who are poor can still be happy, why becos they appreciate their surroundings and dont compare themselves to other pple.. the problem is why cant i be like them and have no worries........... they face starvation, disesase etc..yet they can still smile.........it makes me ashamed that i am living in a first world country with execellent living conditons YET I AM NOT HAPPY WHY???????????????COS OF THE F&*(king rat race to get rich? IS THAT IT? ONES PURPOSE in life is what? to get rich and get the 5CS????????
to the ppl in class, can all the hostilies between one another stop, i noe i sound crazy but can all those pple i have offended in the past just forgive and forget......... ai i think i am the one whos going crazy.........who can recommend a counsellor or something msg/call me at 97630392. YEs this is my hp no ....pls no prank msgs can liao LALALALALL LOO IEIWiEKLEEL bleahz i am nutz goind nus..........toxic......poison,,,,,,,,,,,give me some time timet ime, give me somemore time.......................cindicated i am selfish i am wrong ....................................
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ONE FIFTY AM on 9 august 2004.............what a way to start your day so pardon my crankinesSSSSSSSSsssss
1:26:00 AM
august
Saturday, August 07, 2004
here i am rotting in front of the comp on this day 7 august 2004. Earlier i had pw meeting that was rather unproductive as one of the pple who was supposed to come didnt come and he had the pw file. So i just sat there and stoned, while the girls chatted away (One of lingzhi's friends came) In the end managed to do 2 group evaluations.
Last sat, went for scouts stepping up ceremony to see the juniors (sec 3's) take over the sec 4's role. Hm i remember exactly one year ago when i stepped down and left the scout unit, hai how fast 1 year flies by.... now theres about 2 months to promos and i still in a slacky mood. i had to leave sji at 5 and rushed off to town to meet the other lawnbowlers, we then took a bus and rode for a long rige.(45) min to our coach house for our seniors j2 farewell. Haha i ate lots of food, had fun playing tai ti, watched hellboy, saw the girls play mahjong( i have no idea how to play that) got home at about 2330.
Sunday cant really remember much, generally stayed at home to study for tests.
Monday was napha test day. Due to photo taking , our class got delayed, in the end had to continue after school.. which ended at 510 !! hm i think i did alrite this year, better than last year, hm situps 45, standing broad jump 226cm , pullups 6, shuttle run 10.1 secs, sit and reach 34 cm, 2.4 Km run 12.16 mins///overall silver i hope.. most impressive for pullups goes to..................Byron and Samuel the musclemen, they did close to 40 pullups combined. FOr shuttlerun, junjie is undisputed champ with his sliding technique and time of 9.2 seconds, 2.4 Km run champion is byron/joel all around 9.30 min
Tuesday erm cant really rememeber much, wednesday was erm careers day for j2s. J1 timetable was for all of us to take a gp test in the morning which i think i did badly and after that was another pw block period where we were more interested in getting ready for the maths retest. Had lunch and then proceeded to the lt for a 3 hour maths paper, what the heck my butt was pain after everything was over, 3 hours of torture.
Thursday came home and slept for like 3 hours in the afternoon. Managed to update cs 1,6 which took AGES and i mean AGES like a few hours, could barely do my work as a result of that.
Friday was a day of fun, starting out after school where the class went to seoul garden at bugis for lunch. The place was packed man, and the food rox.. Ate until super full, we did some crazy stuff like bbqing the orange, jelly which melted into a pile of goo, brendan my classmate actually ate one of the bbqed oranges -_-"'. Joel our htc did some ridicolous things like putting fruits like watermelon together with the raw meat. OVerall very enjoyable. After that went home for nap before heading to sji for ap. Hm this year got some very glaring faults but overall was still ok. Watching it brought back memories of me in the field marching last year. After that headed to town with two of my good buddies to play...pool not something i am good at. Hm after 8 months in jc, i have only played pool 3 times... that sort of tells u how good/lousy i am. But the place at cineleisure was a rip off at 8.80 an hour, we stayed there for 2 hours and left the place at 2245. Reached home at 2320.
7:17:00 PM
